If you have read my blog for a while, you will know that I do not like change! Change in general makes me anxious (and freaks me out 😂) , especially a change in routine. Which is every Autistic persons worst NIGHTMARE!
Back at the end of May, I passed my driving test and I bought myself a little car. I was so happy and couldn’t wait to start driving to work and to never get on a crowded bus again! I had planned to start commuting to work in a months time…
Then weeks turned into 5 months and I still hadn’t driven to work.
I made so many excuses through those months and at the start I didn’t register why. It was only until I starting reading an article online about Autism that I soon realised the reason I was struggling to drive to work was because it would change my routine, and the thought of a new routine made me anxious.
Then one morning, when I was stood waiting for the bus in the rain I starting thinking of my odd car dilemma. I thought of all the reasons why I wanted to drive; to become independent, to never get on public transport again and to be able to do a job I have wanted to do for such a long time! I could of been driving to work at that very second but instead I was wasting my time on a bus that was running late. The thought made me anxious, but I was going to have to change my routine otherwise I wasn’t going to get very far with my goals…
Then I definitely had enough as the bus was 25 minutes late and my uniform was soaked! (And being late made me even more anxious!) 🙄😂
A couple of days later, I was sat in my car getting ready to set off to work for the first time. I had so many nightmares that night worrying what could go wrong once I entered the city. I also started having second thoughts about driving and thought about catching the bus so that my routine wouldn’t change. I talked myself out of the it and made my way to work.
Once I started driving every negative thought vanished and I walked into work with a smile on my face! My colleagues were impressed but also shocked that I arrived an hour early 😂 But I didn’t care! I drove to work and achieved my goal!
I’ve been driving to work for the past 2 weeks and have been loving every second of it! It’s been one of the best things I’ve ever achieved and I definitely won’t be catching the bus ever again!